Poseur to Composer

Seems like I've taken a step back in my C Major scales. My "max tempo" for two hands ascending has dropped slightly to 65 bpm. Descending is about 40 bpm, if that. These fluctuations and finger fumbling) has been frustrating, so I'm backing off a bit and spending more time on the So What intro.

Aside: I have a big job interview on Thursday. Should I get the job, my schedule will change dramatically. My life will change dramatically. However, my piano practice and music theory study will continue no matter what.

I'd like to read a bit before bed, so I'll stop here.

Time meditated today: 35 minutes Quality of meditation (out of 10): 5 (To improve focus during meditation, I started bookstanding again)

I've been tuning people out lately. Turning down meals with friends. Unsociable at church. Sometimes even downright cold. I told a coworker who plays piano and is trained in music theory that I can't wait to get home and practice my scales. She said that's "kind of weird".

Today at the church picnic, a picnic I didn't want to attend, a friend of mine started juggling bowling pins. When did he learn that? We used to have dinner and converse for hours, but not lately. He didn't talk to me. I didn't go over and talk to him.

I haven't been on a date in months.

All these things require time, energy and money I don't have. After my work, church and family obligations and life maintenance, learning piano and music theory takes up what little resources I have left.

I'm not sure how to juggle it all.

On a more positive note...

I'm on Phase 2 of the C Major scale. This phase focuses on speed. Zach Evan's book says the phase is complete when I can ascend and descend the scale with both hands at 90 bpm. This has to be done perfectly, 3-4 times in a row.

My current "max tempo" is 70 bpm with both hands, ascending only.

I'm a bit of a to-do freak. I love that dopamine hit when I check tasks off as complete. It motivates me to work hard on these scales.

Maybe incremental subtasks I can check off are the key to maintaining a social life too?

Time meditated today: 40 minutes Quality of meditation (out of 10): 4

I earned the checkmark:

But my morning was a trainwreck:

Time meditated today: 0 minutes Quality of meditation (out of 10): 0